Sunday, July 02, 2006

Army Life

Life is good in the army for me... Very good... it starts making you do things you never thought that you were ever able to do... its shows you the potential that you had hiding in you all this time...

The people I never knew 4 months back has now come the people closest to me... we train sweat together, laugh together, bleed together, eat together, live together...

I'm neither aiming to be a commander nor not being one... my perception of the army is just do what I'm told and let them decide where i should be posted to..

In the army you realise what you have been doing right or wrong with your life before the army... how you wasted it, the things you could do better... you realise who are your friends and who were the ones that were making use of you, the ones you are still proud to have and the ones you shouldn't have let go of.

One thing that i love about the army... is it has made me more a man... both physically and mentally, heart and soul... its got nothing about serving your country... its your family and friends that you are going into the army for... so for all those who have yet to go in.. all i can say is don't fear the army instead just take it as a life all the singaporean boys have to go thru... So enjoy it as much as you can... you don't have a choice..

Rene Andre Albers 2:48 AM

Massari Real Love

Girl, girl I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I'm watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

Baby I was there all alone
When you'd be doin things that i would wit you
I picture you and me all alone
I'm wishing you were someone i can talk to
I gotta get you out outta my head
But baby girl I gotta see you once again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Girl, girl I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I"m watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

Every night when now when I go to sleep
I couldn't stop dreaming about you
Your love has got me feeling kinda weak
I really can't see me without you
And now you're runnin round in my head
I'm never gonna let you slip away again
It's real love that you don't know about

Every now and then when I want you
I wish that I could tell you that I want you
If I could have the chance to talk wit cha
If I could have the chance to walk wit cha
Then I would stop holding it in
And never have to go through this again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Girl, girl I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I"m watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

Today when I saw you alone
I knew I had to come up and hold you
Cuz girl I really gotta let you know
All about the things you made me go through
And now she lookin at me in the eye
And now you got me hopin I ain't dreamin again, Again
It's real love that you don't know about

Every now and then when I want you
I wish that I could tell you that I want you
If I could have the chance to talk wit cha
If I could have the chance to walk wit cha
Then I would stop holding it in
And never have to go through this again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Girl, girl I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I"m watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

You're the one that I want and no one can take It from me
No, no, no, no, no
Even though I don't really know you
I got a lot of love I wanna show you
And you'll be right there infront of me
I see you passing infront of me
No, no, no Girl I need your love Baby I need your love

Rene Andre Albers 2:30 AM

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

One final day before I go into the Singapore military. Going to miss each and every one of you. Mummy, Dad, Bro, Friends and You...

A new life awaits me... what to anticipate? I have no idea... thrilling? Yes... Worrying? Yes... Scared? Shitless.

Goodbye to all of you... its time a boy grows up to be a man... see you guys in 2 weeks... sorry but not much to say... will keep you guys updated...

Rene Andre Albers 12:41 PM

Sunday, May 28, 2006

If I Were You by Hoobastank

You seem to find the dark when everything is bright
You look for all thats wrong instead of all thats right
Does it feel good to you to rain on my parade
You never say a word unless its to complain
Its driving me insane

If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing i'd do
Is thank the stars for all that i have
If i were you

Look what surrounds you now
More than you ever dreamed
Have you forgotten just how hard it used to be
So whats it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time

If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing i'd do
Is thank the stars above
Tell the ones i love that i do
If i were you

So whats it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time
If i were you

Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing i'd do
Is thank the stars above
For the ones i love
Take a breath and enjoy the view
Live the life that i've wanted to
If i were you

Rene Andre Albers 10:17 PM

Always By Your Side - Sheryl Crow & Sting

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But my demons and my angels reappeared
Leavin' only traces of the man you thought I'd be
Too afraid to hear the words I'd always feared
Leavin' you with only questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But this isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

Life is like this song... how far i maybe... no matter how long i'm gone... you know that i am always on your side.

Rene Andre Albers 1:17 AM

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Kershaw Nik - The Riddle (3:52)

I got two strong arms
Blessings of babylon
With time to carry on
And try for sins and false alarms
So to america the brave
Wise men save

Near a tree by a river
There's a hole in the ground
Where an old man of aran
Goes around and around
And his mind is a beacon
In the veil of the night
For a strange kind of fashion
There's a wrong and a right
But he'll never, never fight over you

I got plans for us
Nights in the scullery
And days instead of me
I only know what to discuss
Oh for anything but light
Wise men fighting over you
It's not me you see
Pieces of valentine
With just a song of mine
To keep from burning history
Seasons of gasoline and gold
Wise men fold

Near a tree by a river
There's a hole in the ground
Where an old man of aran
Goes around and around
And his mind is a beacon
In the veil of the night
For a strange kind of fashion
There's a wrong and a right
But he'll never, never fight over you

I got time to kill
Sly looks in corridors
Without a plan of yours
A blackbird sings on bluebird hill
Thanks to the calling of the wild
Wise mens child

Near a tree by a river
There's a hole in the ground
Where an old man of aran
Goes around and around
And his mind is a beacon
In the veil of the night
For a strange kind of fashion
There's a wrong and a right
But he'll never, never fight over you

This is an oldie but i find is one of the most poetic songs written... and has many meanings...

Rene Andre Albers 8:55 PM

Friday, April 28, 2006

National Service

ARGH! Just recieved the news that i would be enlisting on the 2nd of June... haiz... i would be missing Debz wedding (Date not to be disclosed yet.. I would let debbie do that)... My trip to Australia would have to be cancelled cos i have no break!

I'm now on attachment... it ends on 3rd June... enlisting on 2nd June... i even have to take leave from work to go into the army... haiz...

On the bright side... i go in early i come out early... i would be able to see Micaela...! She is gonna be adorable.. my goodness!!! and lets hope... have that tint of hope... that i become a man... ha! ok nothing much to say anyway... will update you on army life... for now... pray for my forsaken soul.. ;)

Rene Andre Albers 10:30 PM

Monday, April 24, 2006

Simon Webbe: After All

After all, the broken stones

That were thrown, for no good reason

Inside, she is loving him still

After all this time

And though her heart, begs the stars

No sign of healing, It's All right

She is loving him still, after all this time.

Oh yeah

[Chorus:]

Trying to push the past away

Still waiting for the lights to change

She’ll try, try for the sake of their pride, pride

Learning to barely feel the pain

Thicker the skin the less the strain

And though it's really hurting

She ain’t breaking, breaking, breaking

Coz she's loving him still, after all this time

Now he knows his weakness shows

Selfish soul, never changing

But that's fine, because she's loving him still

After all this time

And to the outside eye

You see you found a different guy

And it all seems perfect, and that's how she wants it

Coz she's loving him still, after all this time.

[Chorus]

After all this time...

After all, after all, after all this time

Bones have to grow, and age it shows

Though we try and hide it

Inside, she's loving him still

After all this time

And behind his tired eyes,

she sees the boy with his arms wide
Who made her feel like an angel

Oh that’s why she's loving him still

For the rest of her life, she's loving him still

For the last of many miles

She's loving him still

After all this time

bogging at work now... which is dangerous... leave you with this song.. i find it holds a wonderful meaning..

Rene Andre Albers 4:34 PM

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Before Christmas

Christmas.
The time of year that people are what i like to call it.. filled.
Filled with happiness.
Filled with joy.
Filled with excitement.

for me... its the time of the year i feel...
most alone.
yes... the smiles and wishes from everyone...
yet nobody knows..
my last merry christmas has come and gone...
the year of 2000.
the last christmas i wasn't alone...
dont get me wrong... i love christmas... its just...
i have nothing to look forward to...
maybe the smiles...
the gifts...
but all i ever wanted for christmas was what i had in 2000...
and it's you.

every year i wait for christmas...
wondering... if i would have a great christmas...
yet every christmas that goes by... it gets worse..
so everybody... have a merry fucking christmas...

Rene Andre Albers 7:00 PM