Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Before Christmas

Christmas.
The time of year that people are what i like to call it.. filled.
Filled with happiness.
Filled with joy.
Filled with excitement.

for me... its the time of the year i feel...
most alone.
yes... the smiles and wishes from everyone...
yet nobody knows..
my last merry christmas has come and gone...
the year of 2000.
the last christmas i wasn't alone...
dont get me wrong... i love christmas... its just...
i have nothing to look forward to...
maybe the smiles...
the gifts...
but all i ever wanted for christmas was what i had in 2000...
and it's you.

every year i wait for christmas...
wondering... if i would have a great christmas...
yet every christmas that goes by... it gets worse..
so everybody... have a merry fucking christmas...

Rene Andre Albers 7:00 PM